I feel like I'm doing a disservice to myself whenever consuming popular/new content on YouTube.
All I see on the website is a slew of "creative" works designed not to appeal to me, the viewer, but instead to the YouTube algorithm. The way creativity is stifled on the platform is really sad to me, because at its core, YouTube is meant to just be a video hosting platform with a comment box--But somehow, it's formed into something much more uninspired and narrow-minded. There exists a distinction to us between .mp4 files and YouTube Videos. the "YouTube Video" is seen as its own thing, and this has made people really limit themselves creatively, in favour of maximizing their view-count for artificial ego boosts.
The worst part is that nothing is meaningful anymore--Yet, everything is disguised to appear so. "Creators" will always have an intriguing thumbnail and title, only for the video to turn out to be a nothing-sandwich talking about nothing meaningful for 20 minutes and oftentimes not even trying to rationalize it. I think YouTube addiction is so commonly accepted and excused due to most content attempting to have a veneer of intellectual value to it. I still get that empty feeling from consuming YouTube content all day, but I suppose we find it easier to ignore when it comes from that website compared to others, that are much more transparent in their mindlessness.
Even while trying to make content in an entirely self serving way (ie. doing what i fucking want to), I get the feeling whenever uploading on YouTube that my content has to somehow fit in. To be like the existing shit on there, follow a set structure or something. Maybe its a subconscious thing I just have to shake.
However, it's so much easier to just express myself through other means (ie. my blog or just fucking talking to people) because that expectation to make a captivating video with fast editing and bright colours (and to do that on a regular basis) just isn't there. People are just viewing text on my blog. There's less layers of abstraction. There's less to infer from the artistic representation of the thoughts I'm trying to convey, simply because the medium requires less of it. For this reason, I find it so much less of a painful experience to try to create something meaningful for my blog compared to my YouTube channel.
tl;dr - Social media is making you dumb, Youtube is making your creative output dumb, World is a fuck
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